WHERE'S MY HEART
LIFE AFTER THE CD!
OK, OK, I'LL GO!
So, I know a man who has been bugging me (really inviting me over the years) to come to something called Karitos. It's a Christian artists venue with workshops and performances of other talents. You know, a place where I could call home. Years have gone by with many invitations, and I have almost always declined. "My kids are too small, I don't have the money, I don't have the time...blah, blah, blah!" Whatever the excuse, I have not yet participated....until tomorrow!
You see, it was another one of those, "Okay Lord, I'll go!" moments. I don't like admitting that I talk to God that way, but He doesn't seem to mind. I'm glad his love is unconditional! I'm not really being disrespectful as much as I feel the Spirit moving me in a direction I have resisted all these years and I finally give in.
Yep, I bit the bullet and paid the money, and tomorrow I am going to two workshops; one by Glenn Kaiser called Music Biz 102, and another one by his wife, Wendi. I am excited (not to drive all the way to Wheaton Academy) but excited nonetheless! I'm hoping to learn some things, possibly talk to other artists, and enjoy the day.
They have free nights where all the artists come together and worship God. It's supposed to be fantastic, but I can't go...no, really, this time, I really can't go. I pray, "Lord, bless Karitos this year. Please be present with all of us and move our hearts in Your direction for your purposes and glory! Amen!"
I'll let you know how it was!
TO DO OR NOT TO DO (that is the question)?
BLOG OR DR. WHO?
"IT'S WHAT I DO!"
"God Isn't Finished With Me Yet!"
I'm heavy hearted tonight and in need of forgiveness. I asked God to forgive me, and that is done, but now I will be working on forgiving myself. You see God is gracious and promises, "If we confesses their sins, God is faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness." I'm not as gracious with myself as my God is!
Why is it so tough to forgive oneself? Maybe it's perfectionism, or an inflated ego. It could be pride, or the powerful feelings of shame when I inadvertantly hurt someone. Whatever it is, it stinks!
Lessons from internet communication has been my "food" this year. I have misunderstood a very good friend, and now I have hurt an acquaintance...all through the convenience of social networking!
Without going into particulars, I made a promise to myself to eliminate certain subject matter on Facebook, which I have done, for the most part. I only broke my vow twice, but I am determined to continue to keep trying.
Boredom is usually the culprit. I do online transcription, and when I'm waiting for work, I peruse my favorite information sites. If I find something interesting or funny, I feel the strong urge to post it on Facebook, even knowing it is within the realm of information pertaining to my vow. It's a very strong urge that I didn't experience when I wasn't on Facebook. Why the strong desire to inform everyone of an opinion or my daily thoughts? It's an interesting feeling, and one I didn't have before social networking. I'm not quite sure I understand that feeling thoroughly yet.
Well, I am a member of the species of humans! We are forever making mistakes, and hopefully learning from them. I am learning, (thank you, God), to consider my emotions and become less reactionary, because, for the most part, my insecurity aids in misunderstanding or misinterpreting internet "talk," and I am learning to be more thoughtful in my responses.
You know what they say about "old dogs?" Well, I'm not really old, nor a dog, but these lessons cut through my gray matter a little slower than they used to! Oh well! I'm a work in progress, and God isn't finished with me yet! <sigh>
"Hi Ho a-Dario, a-Quantifying I Will Go!!"
Entering Business 101 Kicking & Screaming!
Love! Love! Love!
Resting Yet Working or Working Yet Resting?
Resting yet working? I'm sure there's a term for that, like "oxymoron" or something, but is resting while you work even possible?
